One of the reasons I started my website is that I wanted a place for women to come together and dream. We women need to know that we don’t have to hang on to an old dream that has stopped nurturing us — that there is always time to start a new dream. This story is about a woman who was terrified that her weight would affect her health and leave her children without a mother. So she shed the weight, transforming into a healthier, more confident version of herself, which proves that we really can do anything if we’re determined! -– Marlo, MarloThomas.com
By Lori Weiss
“I’ve never run in the dark, let alone at 2 a.m.,” Linda laughed, “but my husband is coming along just in case, so he can bring back the body.”
But it’s not just the run that’s unique. It’s the group that Linda will be joining. Each of her teammates has lost more than 75 pounds, and they’ll be meeting for the first time when they arrive for the race. Twelve strangers, 1,200 pounds lighter than they once were, running in tag-team style over a period of 36 hours.
And for Linda, it all began with an episode of “The Biggest Loser”.
“My husband Charlie and I were watching an episode where the contestants were running a marathon,” Linda remembered, “and Tara Costa from Long Island was killing it. I cried when I watched her cross the finish line. She was an unbelievable athlete from the beginning of the season and I kept thinking, ‘Maybe I can start running if I lose some weight.’”
At the time, Linda was 229 pounds and it had been years since she’d completed anything more than a midnight snack run.
“That was my witching hour,” she said. “When everyone was finally asleep, the cabinets would begin calling to me. I knew what was in there because I bought it. I’d put on the TV and watch my shows and graze.”
For Linda, food was love. Having grown up in a big Italian family, there wasn’t enough food on the table unless there were leftovers that lasted for days. And there were never any limits. With a table that took up the entire kitchen, meals were served family-style and if you wanted more, it was all right there for the taking. From the time Linda was a child, she knew the scale was not her friend.
“I remember having to do the weigh-ins in gym class,” she explained. “They never say the number out loud, but just the idea that everyone was watching you get on the scale was nerve-racking.”
But that was the only part of gym class that Linda didn’t love. Whether it was volleyball, tennis or badminton, she never let her weight get in the way.
“Everybody else wanted to get out of gym, but I loved it!” she exclaimed. “I was competitive. If we could beat our gym teacher Mrs. Flynn at badminton, we could get the rest of the semester off. But I didn’t want the semester off! I just wanted to beat her. I just wanted to take that title, because no one had ever done it!
Linda never took that title, nor did anyone else, but with her 20th high school reunion on the way, there was always the idea of a second chance. But that would involve actually going to the reunion — and that idea was weighing her down.
“I didn’t feel like I’d accomplished anything” she continued. “Yes, I have a beautiful family, but I could see on Facebook, that everyone looked the same as they did in high school, and I couldn’t see past the way I looked. I wanted something to show for the last 20 years.”
It wasn’t as if Linda hadn’t lost weight before. She’d lost it before her sister’s wedding, when she was first dating Charlie, even in anticipation of a reunion with an old friend. But she’d never put a long-term plan into place, so the weight kept finding its way back. And while she vowed to give it one more try before the reunion, it was an event that came two months earlier that would set her on a new course.
“I woke up in the middle of the night with my heart racing and my hands shaking. I thought I was going to die. All I could do was pace the living room floor, wringing my hands, all the while wondering what the hell was wrong with me.”
Linda thought she was having a heart attack. But it was actually panic that woke her up from a sound sleep. It was enough to make her realize she had to do something to calm the anxiety she had about her weight.
“That made me realize I had to start taking care of myself,” she said, “that I could have a heart attack. My kids were only 12 and 9 then, way too young to live without their mom.”← BackNext →